I am in full control of my life.

Driving instructors teach one counterintuitive thing about a skid: you steer into it. The car obeys you again the moment you stop fighting the direction it's already going. Control isn't the same as everything going to plan — it's the steering staying in your hands while conditions do what conditions do.

Look at where your hands actually are today. What time you get up. Which message you answer. What you agree to before you've thought about it. That's a real wheel, and most of it goes unused.