I will get through this.

One odd thing about bad stretches is how little of them survives in memory afterwards. People can tell you the week it started and the month it ended, and the long middle comes back as a blur with three or four scenes standing in it.

You're currently living inside the part that won't be kept. That is no comfort at all today, when every hour has to be gone through at full length and full weight. But the weight isn't permanent property. Almost nobody is still carrying the middle of it ten years on, including the ones who were certain they would.