I am grateful for past experiences that have taught me resilience and strength.

You never feel resilient at the time. During it you feel like someone barely coping, improvising badly, fairly sure that anyone else would be handling this better.

Resilience is a label applied afterward, from outside, to behaviour that felt like nothing but endurance from within. Which means your current sense of *I can't handle this* is not evidence of anything — you felt precisely that last time too.

That's the real inheritance from a hard past. Not strength as a feeling, but a record.

Think of the worst month you've had. You did not know you'd get through that one either.