I am working through this.

Nobody hands out a receipt for this kind of effort. The conversation you had before the conversation. The morning you got up on time when staying put would have been easier. The hour spent on something that then had to be redone.

Progress through a difficult stretch is almost never legible from inside it. People routinely conclude they are getting nowhere during the exact week they moved furthest.

Consider whoever you were four months ago, and what would have flattened them that you now deal with before lunch.

None of that is nothing. That kind of work simply leaves no visible mark until much later.