I deserve the wonders of a positive mood.

The good towels stay in the cupboard for guests who rarely come. The nice notebook stays blank in case something worthy of it turns up. A lot of people run their own lives as though they were the lodger.

A good mood gets filed the same way — a luxury to be earned once the important things are done, rather than the condition that makes the important things go better.

Deserving it settles a question that takes up far more room than it should. Use the towels. Nothing is being saved for a better occupant.