i’m the most amazing thing that could have happened to me.

Consider the attendance record. Every bad hour, every good summer, every sleepless night you have ever had — one person was present at all of them, and it was you.

That's a strange sort of luck to sit with. The company you keep most is your own, and in a bad stretch that company can turn sour fast. Being decent to it isn't vanity. It's closer to maintenance on the one thing that has never once left the room.