When I think about healing I feel as if I am already truly healed.

Picture yourself doing something and parts of the brain light up as though you were doing it. Musicians use this. So do people relearning how to hold a cup.

The picture isn't the thing, and nobody should pretend otherwise. What it does is keep a door open — it keeps a version of you available that hasn't been narrowed down by a difficult month. People stop attempting what they have stopped being able to imagine. Holding the image is a way of staying in the running for it.