Success stories are told backwards, which is why they sound so orderly. Nobody living inside one experiences a narrative arc. They experience a Thursday with too much on it.
The opportunity in front of you is smaller and far less cinematic than a story. It is a set of decisions about the next fortnight: what you ask for, what you let go of, who you tell the truth to.
Those choices are what the story gets made out of later. You are allowed to make them badly on some days and still have the material.