I am a strong and capable person.

Notice who calls you when something has gone wrong. People are shrewd about this. They don't ring whoever is loudest about coping; they ring the one who has actually held something heavy.

If your phone rings that way, an audit has already been carried out, and it was done without your involvement.

Self-assessment is unreliable in the middle of a bad stretch. You have far too much recent evidence of struggling and none of the earlier decades. Other people kept the longer record.