I am kind to myself.

Notice the tone. Most people address themselves in a register they would never use on anyone they liked — clipped, impatient, quick with a verdict.

If a friend rang tonight and described your exact week in your exact terms, you would not say back what you have been saying to yourself. You would say something slower and more forgiving, and you would mean it. The gap between those two voices is not a character flaw. It is an old default, and defaults can be edited one sentence at a time.