I don’t need to know the reasons why my health got off track, I only think about progressive ways to guarantee my healing.

Why is the question that keeps people awake, and it almost never pays out.

The version that arrives at three in the morning is not an inquiry, it is an audit, and it always finds you guilty of something. The years of stress. The check-up you postponed. The genes you had no say in.

Bodies go wrong for reasons that are largely statistical and largely nobody's fault. Very little of it was ever put to you for a decision.

Forward-facing questions are smaller and answerable. What happens on Tuesday. Who to ring about the letter. What might make tonight easier. Those do not supply meaning, but they do supply something to do with your hands.