I enjoy managing and investing my money.

There is a particular way people open a banking app. Thumb hovering, eyes half shut, a small braced feeling while the number loads.

Almost always the number is roughly what they expected. The dread was the expensive part, not the balance, and it had been charging interest all week. Enjoyment might be a large ask, but the looking gets easier with repetition, the way anything does once it stops being an ambush. Whatever it says today, it says the same thing whether you look or not.