I am more resilient than I give myself credit for.

Resilience is invisible to its owner because it never announces itself. It shows up as the day being got through, and a day got through leaves no evidence.

Have someone recount your last two years back to you sometime. The list is usually longer than the internal version — moves, losses, an illness in the family, a job that ended badly — and the person listening tends to say something like, I didn't realise it was that much.

The credit is missing because nobody, including you, was keeping the books.