I put my faith in god to bring about entire full body restoration.

Faith gets pictured as a decision made once, dramatically, at a low point. In practice it looks like the same four lines murmured last thing at night for eleven years, some of them meant and some of them barely conscious.

The repetition is not a failure of sincerity. It is the form the thing takes. Most durable trust gets built the same way, out of a great many unremarkable evenings that nobody would ever think to write down.