The challenges you go through make you mature.

Maturity, in the people who have it, mostly looks like not flinching. You tell them something bad and they don't flood the room with their own reaction or start solving it inside the first thirty seconds.

That capacity is expensive and it's bought in one currency only. Someone learns to sit with your bad news because they have sat inside their own and found out it was survivable.

None of which is a reason to be grateful for what's happening now. It's a note that the thing you're doing is not producing nothing, even on the days when it plainly feels that way.